I really do. It's the worst. It's always on my mind, I'm always worrying about it. I knew that it would be an issue when I decided to come to one of the most expensive schools in the nation, but honestly. This is ridiculous.
I check my bank balance more than any normal individual should. I know exactly, down to the penny, how much a 20-oz. soda costs at Walgreens, Duane Reade, Food Emporium, Space Market, and CVS (my caffeine habit is my guilty pleasure...SO guilty, but oh so good). I buy books for class at the last possible second and spend hours searching for better deals online. I just spent four dollars to do my laundry, and I was honestly contemplating going another week with just the clothes I've got left in order to put off paying (once I run out of socks and underwear, though, I draw the line). I hate being a poor college student. I really hope that I'll be able to get through college pretty well and then find myself a job that'll allow me to not worry about bills and emergencies and overdrafts 24/7 and actually be able to afford little pleasures (like SHOES). But considering I still don't really have defined career goals, I'm not sure if that'll happen.
Sigh.
Anyway, on to more interesting topics.
This weekend was a relatively quiet one. It was far too cold to think about venturing out and actually doing something, so I stayed in both nights (well, I went over to Richie's on Friday, but that doesn't really count). On Saturday, Richie and Jayson came over to my place. We had a movie night and a sleepover. The first film we watched was "Paranormal Activity". I don't know if you know about this movie, but seriously, don't watch it. I'm a huge baby when it comes to horror movies, and I got so scared that I start shaking and crying...it's not a pretty situation. Luckily, both of the boys understand this and I had one of them on either side of me...just in case the demons decided to come get me. It was terrifying when, partway through one of the scariest scenes, my suitemate came in. When I heard the door, I was convinced that it was a ghost coming in to attack me. Don't laugh. It was scary!
Well as I sat on the couch, crying and sniffling after the movie ended, Richie quickly put on "Up". I hadn't seen it before, and while I think I would've enjoyed it more if I had been in a good state of mind at the beginning, I got into it fairly quickly and ended up really enjoying it. I don't really watch many animated movies (I grew up in Disney's golden age of animation, and I don't like CGI as much) but this one was really well-done and pretty poignant. I like that it was the kind of film that kids as well as adults could enjoy. The music was excellent, as well (I think it won a few Grammys).
Sunday was a really quiet day. I'm going through the RALI process in order to be an RA next year, and I had my first session at 1:00. I was pretty nervous (I'm an anxious person to begin with, and stuff like this is always quite nerve-racking for me) but it actually went well, I think. I do well in groups, and there was a point where we had to role-play mediation situations (I have to admit, I used a little of my psych knowledge as well as my own personal experiences with mediation on this one) and I think I did quite well. I've still got two papers to write, homework, another group session, and an individual interview to do, though...so let's hope everything turns out well!
Today's been okay...I was reminded when talking to a friend in Italian of just how great my job is (really, I get paid $11/hr to have a place to do my homework and read the news, and in return all I have to do is deliver and sort mail, make copies, sign for packages, and provide office supplies). I don't have a 9:30 AM class tomorrow (my professor had a death in the family, which is terribly sad, but I certainly appreciate being able to sleep in) so I plan on getting a LOT of sleep tonight and hopefully getting some homework done that I've got for Wednesday. Here's to it!
No comments:
Post a Comment